I’ve been struggling on writing about my religion on this blog, mainly because I like to keep things light and non-controversial. I recognize that it can be a little silly to discuss these things on a beauty blog. I personally am not a fan of people talking a big game about their religion because it is a private, personal thing. But it’s a real thing in my life and my experiences as being a young-ish NYC transplant and having a non-sexy faith is a part of who I am, so this is truly just about honesty.
A Quick Preface
I “left” the Catholic Church around the time most people do – right after high school, and all throughout college. For a while, religion just felt like “justified” hatred and a bunch of people who were hurting each other. And even still, when you look at the surface of what happens throughout the world it does feel like religion divides more than it unites. It wasn’t until right before I got engaged that I began to feel the desire to return to Catholicism. I began to realize that all my values were tied into my Catholic faith more than I ever realized. So I was confirmed last June (a Sacrament in which I profess that I have officially chosen Catholicism as my religion and am officially initiated as a member of the Catholic community) and had a wonderful sponsor and friend, Nicole, along side me. A lot of people assumed that I did this for my upcoming wedding, but you know what they say about people who assume things….
Religion, Not Just Spirituality
Living in NYC means that having a faith and a spiritual belief beyond the “power of the universe” is generally questioned. I am forced to present my religion like it is an incurable disease to people: already defending myself the moment I bring it to anyone’s attention; letting them know I won’t “infect” them like everyone does on their Facebook news feed. I have to be self-deprecating about it to people I’m not that close with out of fear that they will stop taking me seriously. It’s a weird complex I’ve developed, and it kind of sucks.
I’ve sat through meetings in which the idea of Jesus being the son of God is literally laughed at, I’ve been called weird names for identifying as Catholic even though I don’t ever come right out and say it, and I’ve been a part of awkward conversations in which everyone makes fun of the Bible while I just sit there waiting for the next topic. And that’s all stuff that has happened within the last 2 months. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs, mine just aren’t super popular in my work or my group of friends. So I stay quiet, because honestly what is the point?
I’ve had to bite my tongue in a lot of weird ways, which is insane to me because I never bite my tongue. I always make sure my opinion is known. But when it comes to religion and faith, I let it go. People are on their own journeys, and everyone has to walk their path alone. Whether I talk about my beliefs or not doesn’t directly affect someone who despises organized religion. They have different experiences they are making their judgements off of, and who am I to tell them otherwise?
The Un-Cool Religion
On the other side is living in NYC and having a faith that isn’t sexy. I don’t “worship” in a warehouse with a live band of recently reformed drug addicts. Most of the people who sit near me at mass are either 30 years older than me or my age but surrounded by babies. My pastor is not young and fun and hip. So when I tell people I still go to a Catholic church I get weird looks. You should join me at my church, it’s so much more fun or how can you handle all that old music?! I don’t know, I just do. Sorry Not Sorry.
Organized religion of any kind will always have some darkness in it. It’s sad but it is true. People are all kinds of messed up, so whether the pain and darkness your organized religion has seen is in the past or is in the future, it is there. I don’t completely agree with all things American but I love this country and am proud to live here. And I don’t completely agree with all things Catholic but I love my religion and am proud to be a part of it.
See? There I go again, defending myself. I can hear your doubts and I can feel myself trying so hard to defend my beliefs, not to prove to you that you should share them with me, but to prove to you that I’m not crazy for feeling the way I feel.
Anyway, one of my favorite images that perfectly describes the Catholic Church to me is the famous image of Christ and Heart’s Door. It shows Jesus standing at a door, patiently waiting there. Looking closely, you see there is no door knob there for Him to get in. That’s because He isn’t going to force His way into your life. You have to open the door, man. That. Is. Deep.
Okay, finally! What we’re all here for. The actual review:
As you have probably noticed by now, I am a sucker for all things Lara Casey. This woman is a true, genuine spirit that I identify with tenfold. We both chased dreams here in NYC and we both have struggled in different but similar ways. When she turned to her faith to help her, it was there. Her Write The Word journals are, in my opinion, one of her greatest creations to date.
The Write the Word Journal is meant for people who “may have a short creative attention span and want an easy fun way to get into the Bible each day.” And while there aren’t exactly Gospel readings in here to be interpreted, it’s more about what is on your mind and heart and how these verses make you feel. Having attending Catholic schools literally my whole life, I am used to having to approach the Bible with an analytical eye within a theology class. But this journal is meant for you to read the simpler passages and relate your feelings to them. It’s a different and lovely way to read the Bible.
- Gold Foil on EVERY SINGLE PAGE
- Butter soft, thick pages perfect for any pen or even paints and watercolors
- Bright white vegan leather cover
- Over 100 pages
- 5.5 by 8.5 inches
- White satin bookmark
This journal is remarkably under priced for the quality. I’ve purchased similar prayer journals that have thick paper covers and flimsy paper on the inside for a similar price. Although they are sold out right now, volume 3 is coming soon and I would highly recommend getting one before they catch on about how under priced it is! Seriously! These should be going for $19, $20, even $22. So far they have been sold for only $15.
I would highly recommend the Write the Word journal to anyone – it is a stationery geek’s nirvana. It is so well made and serves such a wonderful purpose: getting to know the Bible. You can tell it is truly made with love, which makes it all the more exciting to use. Lara Casey does it again, world!
*disclaimer: when I originally wrote this post I was not an affiliate of the Lara Casey Media program. I now proudly am, however all opinions are my own